Ricardo´s Blog

Corporations 'Specialness' Lies in US All

2012-01-12T23:03:00.004Z

I have no intention of sounding mean or vicious, but, "ironically" speaking....

Corporations and Banks are so effective that they leave people available to enjoy themselves doing whatever they want wth lots of free time, while they and their employees secretly feel special because they do all the work, which seems something commendable. ( but hides the fact that all they want is to win all the money.) So much for corporations effectiveness and 'specialness', within the context of human evolution... globally we see no facts that can prove that 'specialness'. Something being Natural does not mean that it is Common Sense. Long road ahead in terms of Human Evolution!! We have barely started evolving... for Real!

"Specifically" speaking....

The presentation each one puts in place 'for others to see' specialness, mirrors the desire of each one of being special. Corporations and Banks have this awesomely effective advertising 'machines', that seek out all the weak points of the mind of humans, to seduce them into buying their product.

To hide all that, the 'presentations of self' (self is the corporations, corporations are a symbol of self as you said) commonly use excuses such as saing that their work is beneficial for society when in fact, only self interest is actual verified as doing anything for profit.

The profit represents the individual ego of each one, when each one thinks he needs to be more than others to be respected, because he thinks all think the same. That is the essence of spitefulness.

If we notice how companies have been advertising their initiatives in this world we find that it is common to use such presentations pictures words that appeal to global benefit, but if we look at the world, we see that that benefit never really becomes real.

All this happens due to the starting point of the companies, mirrors the individual self interest. They actually survive based on that. I find this very prominent point in market studies when people want to create a company. Much of the fundings that new companies get, is based on how good are the prospects of getting products selling is, to an not yet explored market (market in this context means, potential consumer group). Never the less one rule of thumb when considering creating a new business is to create something new never seen before, since the ego of man individual adheres a lot to what is new, never seen or accessed used by others before.

Corporative competition is also seen as a legit and perfectly normal/acceptable behavior, since it mirrors exactly how the human's individual mind works in terms of individual survival.

Obviously in all of this, there are some companies that do work that is somehow required and beneficial to all, but much more are the cases where products are only created to satisfy the individuals needs wants and desires of the mind and ego that each each one of us has in his secret mind.

If all the money is created with debt, then ...

2011-10-20T23:19:00.005+01:00

"If ALLL the money is created with debt... what Is the money that can possibly pay-off any of that debt ????"

Does that mean that we have to steal from each other, through sales/capitalism and so called "economy"???? where the major players are banks that have "all the win"?

Isn't that enough perspective to allow us realize that the current money system is a system of abuse that creates and allows abuse, that allow only a few to live a life full of money with the benefits thereof?

But let's face it. What does this represents about what exists in me and each one of us as desire or enjoyment in abusing each other? - To be more than another, to spite other within feeling superior, having more love, more acceptance, more respect, more property, more studies, more beauty, better thins better that, newer newer newer, more, more, more.. everything more... oh ok... we call it "personality" how convenient.. polite even! Nice... as long as I (we) can compare me with others, and for that I (we) have "a secret mind", the abuse seems to be secret and invisible and no one knows about it, it is allegedly invisible...and all is ok. Well well well. Is that so? Checkout the news on TV they seem to say "otherwise" if I can read the meanings of what they talk about after all; They present us with a reflection of what exists in each and every single one of us Humans existing as the "after-all-not-so-secret minds", they show us who we accept and allow ourselves to be. Hopeless defeated inferior, no matter how much we have we always continue to want more. Man we must think we are very lousy beings, we humans. That is a fact, but... that only happens if/because we accept and allow it to be so and or if we thought and believed unconditionally that it was the only way how we can exist.

Imagine... We can star-t by stopping and changing our secret mind. How cool is that?

Rebelling Revolting Rioting

2011-10-08T03:29:00.012+01:00

Revolutions and Rebelion are not the anwser. Let's wake up!

Who "tries" to make you think that its good to rebel revolt and riot making you beleiving that you are changing something is simply deceiving you, you won't make a diference and you will only be separating youself from reality. Changing your mind from confort to rebelion is just jumping in polarities, which only happens in ones head, as nothing to do with taking responsibility and making changes in fact, and all will serve only as an excuse to remove from you more and more freedom by creating more laws to control rioting which will include everones lives, which is what is intended since a long time ago. Get it?

Also it will endure the experience of police forces, which will make them better trained and prepared to more easily control and manipulate populations.

The evil must be stopped inside us, in our heads, before any change takes place in the external reality. Any betterment can only exist when what is best for all is more that what is best for each one individuality.

Bigger Picture Below... (literally lol)
http://i1104.photobucket.com/albums/h324/SimmahDownNah74/evilcorporations.jpg

"Avisaram que iam matar" - 'Crime' derivados de má distribuição de dinheiro na Sociedade..

2011-09-22T19:37:00.015+01:00

Referente á notícia:
http://www.cmjornal.xl.pt/detalhe/noticias/nacional/actualidade/avisaram-que-iam-matar

Alturas como esta são as mais oportunas a começar a perguntar-mo-nos o que se passa com a distribuição do dinheiro nas sociedades em que vivemos e como aceitamos lidar com esse dinheiro.

Chegámos ao ponto em facimente não apenas sobrevivencia estamos dispostos a matar por dinheiro, porque a sobrevivencia e bem estar depende dele. Ao passo que na epoca medieval matavamos por principios, hoje matamos por ganancia e por sobrevivencia, Ainda nos contemplamos a proferir palavras como amor e evolução, quando o mundo a nossa volta dia apos dia nos alerta de que nos afastamos cada vez mais dessas ideias, porque nao as manifestamos de facto no mundo físico real em que vivemos, é nos muito fácil criar cenários idilicos e descrições apropriadas a tudo o que é de bom, constantemente ignorando o mal e abuso que é inerente a tal vivencia neste planeta.

Tempo ideal de considerar um Sistema Monetário de Igualdade, em que a vida humana é colocada em "1º lugar logo á partida". Assim evitamos ter de andar uma vida inteira a querer alcançar ganhar a nossa subsistencia á custa do próprio meio em que nos encontramos, i.e; torna-se dificil olhar a ECOlogia e problemas ambientais, se os lucros ECOnómicos falam mais alto.

Então se este são crimes e é sabido que podem ser evitados se se garantir que todos tem acesso a educação, e nao me refiro á educação apenas como a que académica, mas tambem pessoal, alimentação, abrigo, roupa e algo que se goste de fazer, pelos que dirigem os destinos de cada país, não estarão a ser também tais politicas responsáveis pela faltas que levam certos indivíduos na sociedade a cometer crimes?

Como diz o ditado "Quando se faz algo, deve se fazer bem" em toda a plenitude. Óra governar um país implica garantir que os actos politicos incluêm consideração da boa vivência de todos os cidadãos. É necessário considerar uma nova forma de olhar os trabalhos politicos, e em suma, uma nova maneira de olhar a palavra responsabilidade. Uma grande "falta de responsabilidade" consiste em apenas considerar os interesses de alguns ou de algumas instituições na sociedade, o que acaba por ser faze-lo de acordo com, se a sua participação no sistema respeita essas faltas, nomeiadamente tais como: "garantir lucros de bancos" ou "garantir lucros de certas industrias", etc.. Crimes considerados como danos colaterais, tornam a sociedade perigosa, e são originados não só na ignorancia deliberada da natureza humana, como na própria exploração da mesma para proveito próprio. Isto não é aceitável.

"Quando muitas pessoas sofrem de um delírio, isso se chama religião."

2011-08-14T16:47:00.010+01:00

Perspectiva sobre a afirmação:

"Quando uma pessoa sofre de um delírio, isso se chama insanidade. Quando muitas pessoas sofrem de um delírio, isso se chama religião.
— Robert M. Pirsig"

Que foi apoiada com a mensagem:

"Man Know Thy Self as; Man you are love. Man you are heart"

Ora mais um post que deixa quem o ler, á toa.
Religião é todo o movimento consciente efectuado a volta de um deus, que é uma entidade/existencia ideia completamente separado do que o proprio crente é... neste caso humano de carne e osso.
Então, fora os crentres, praticantes-ou-nao que são "adeptos" de uma religião... há quem mantenha apenas crenças como defesa da personalidade... é uma decepção e queda ainda marior, a de quem participar sem medo e consideração (knowing thyself FOR REAL) com um grupo de culto desse deus (o tal que é da forma manifestada á religião)...

acima disso. e para quem a queda é maior (queda da ilusão/decepção que se dá quando o ser é controntado com a verdade aceite em interesse próprio, em face da verdade do SER como um todo) para queles que apenas se ocupam na partilha com todos a sua propria decepção e ilusão, estimulando a mente dos outros com palavras e sons que apenas apelam a pensamentos vagos de sentimentos e separação. (saber que separação é essa implica saber que cada separação do ser é efectuada a cada pensamento/julgamento/definição em termos de energia e polaridade, e os associados sentimentos que a acompanham - a separação - QUE... é criada pela propria definição -- é um ciclo= percepciona define-> cria, repete, percepciona, define, -> cria)

Ao definir que há diferenças não estamos simplesmente cegamente a criar a separação mas sim dar a oportunidade a outros a que percebam o engano em que vivem e possam tambem mudar e actuar baseados nisso.

A realidade é directa e constante presente e permanente, nisso os sentimentos o amor/coração e a superioridade da consciencia, são apenas uma refracção da realidade. Basta olhar á mecanica das coisas pa cair na real. Estamos aqui. E o delirio é a crença e promoção dos simbolos do amor. Pois como se vai vendo nunca resolveu problemas a nível global. A elevação da individualide pela elevação da consciencia (pensamentos/sentimentos/emoções) corresponte á destruição do grupo, em favor do bem estar individual (bliss).

"Substanciando"
Quantas ideias de identidade temos que nao nos criam medos e desentendimentos?
Quantos paises em guerra não criamos em função de nos identificarmos com os pensamentos de quem somos como habitantes de um pais?
Quantos conflitos de ideias nao nos surgem constantemente em que acabamos apenas por nos fazer sentir mal.. ou bem (implica que alguem se sentira mal, ou que o proprio se sente superior,,, MAS o faz apenas porque de educação foi levado a pensar que o tem de fazer... = ser alguem supeior perante os outros)
Quantos paises não estão em guerra por causa das crenças em que o seu deus é melhor do que o dos outros?
Quantas brigas não há, porque se pensar que o nosso grupo em que todos são seres humanos iguals de facto, é melhor ou diferente ou superior aos outros?
Não é apenas a ideia de que cada um tem de si mesmo que nos faz aparentemente diferentes?
Quantas voltas e quantas obscenidades e purificações não se elevam - como valores na socieidade - á custa de se ter simplesmente permitido isso, e ao percepcionar a consequencia, acreditar que aquilo que vemos é criado por outros?

Como é posivel conhecernos a nós proprios olhando apenas ao que de bom grado encontramos como conhecimento neste mundo?

Não será isso um sintoma do que temos pela frente, algo que meramente nos inflaciona o EGO?????????????? E que é portanto "decepçao"?

Isto acontece porque amente é um programa, que emite energia "boa", a cada passo que damos no sentido de fazer o que ela é suposto fazer. Definir, separar, criar, gerar, energizar. A mente consciente, É o mais perfeito sistema que existe. Funciona com energia inputs/percepções e outputs/reacções e no caminho gera energia, boa e má em iguais quantidades. Ao olharmos ao mundo podemos globalmente e individualmente ver substanciado essa verdade que é o que é aceite de momento. Exemplo: Os paises de hemisfério sul vao começara a cobrar a exploração que os do hemisfério norte efectuou durante tanto tempo. Ou então: Para alguem se sentir bem e superior ao postar no grupo conspiração global, implica que está deliberadamente a querer que os outros se sintam bem. É isso que a mente está programada para, liderar/levar o ser a fazer, criar o mundo, de acordo com superioridade e inferioridade e o bem e o mal. Nisto tudo, podemos usar a mente como expressão de nós proprios realmente, como por exemplo, partilhando a mensagem da Igualdade, o que ná prática deixa em aberto os outros poderem começar a tomar responsabilidade por eles mesmos da mesma maneira. Responsabilidade, não é apenas ter um trabalho e participar exemplamente no sistema monetário que temos. É preferível saber isto previamente e pensar em maneiras de equalizar, em vez de simplesmente enfrentar a consequencia com já está no mundo a acontecer. Equalizar irá de facto ser dar mais qualidade a nos proprios. qualidade de vida em igualdade. É algo que apenas existe na mente do humano, mas pode ser criado. Essa será A UNICA escolha que alguma vez um ser humano terá feito. Tudo o resto são sequencias de vidas/encarnações programadas com a função de manter um certo nível de separação, fuga da qualidade, e corrida/procura desenfreada no sentido da mesma, nunca percebendo que fomos nós proprios que criamos a separação.

(14/08/2011 - texto não revisto/editado)

Meditação - Meditation

2011-07-25T20:22:00.006+01:00

Meditação – Meditation

A meditação e o brainstorming correndo atras de idealismos e sentimentalismos, é uma tradição milenar do humano, e teve os resultados que teve nos dias que correm.

Assim como a energia pode ser usada tanto para o bem como para o mal, e não nos apercebemos que quando a geramos como sentimento, que aparente ser o bem, criamos o mal de facto no mundo real - não o mental - (que é o polo oposto do ponto que nos entretemos a energizar), podiamos com o pensamento, a mente, aferir quais os pensamentos que realmente "causam" criam, um mundo melhor.

Mas, Há principios a seguir, e não desejos.

Os principios são a Igualdade, mesmo que a mente e a consciencia nos digam que somos diferentes.

No fundo a mente tende a enganarmo-nos, porque nao sabendo a origem de cada um dos nossos pensamentos e sentimentos, ficamos completamente vulneráveis ao que a mente nos tem a oferecer como consciencia.

No meio disso tudo existe o SER, o qual pode levar a mente e o fisico, ou seja, tanto o metafisico como o físico, na direcção que SABE, é a sua original natureza (unidade), e nao a da-mente (separação), que é na practicalidade a Igualdade.

(English translation)

Meditation and brainstorming done while running after ideologys and 'sentimentality', is a millenial tradition, and it had the results that we see in the world nowdays.

In the same way that energy can be used both for good and evil , and, we never realize that we generate it as feelings that are apparently 'good', we create evil in fact in the real world - not the mental world (that is the polar point that we are making ourselves busy energizing), we couil with thought as the mind, assesse what thoughts really 'cause' a better world.

But there are principles to follow, not desires.

The principles are this of Equality, even though mind/consicousness tell us that we are diferent.

After all, the mind 'tries' to deceive us, because, while we are unware of the origin of each of our thoughts and feelings, we are vulnerable to what the mind has to offer as consciousness. Within all that, a 'Being' exists, who can take the mind and the physical, i.e., both the metaphysical and the physical, on in the direction that he knows it is its origin (oneness) and not the-mind (separation), that is practically Equality.

When I look at a Woman... I look at Beauty

2011-05-21T16:35:00.016+01:00

When I look at a woman, in a fascination way, or with a inexplicable interest, what I am looking for, is not the woman, but what in me, by using her picture, I create in me as the mind, as energy of feelings and emotions.

The keys that ignite this, are words. Words existing in my mind. Words that I gave meaning to. The most prominent of this words is... Beauty.

Something that is real, is something that is constant and equal, no matter what.
Those key-words like Beauty for instance, by themselves are not something that do actually exist physically tangibly equal.

Beauty. It is a word only. An adjective. I can not say that beauty is something actually real.
For instance. My beauty is not the same as someone else's beauty. Beauty is so mental that it varies with personality. Even one person can change it's beauty values standards according to the distinction as that affirmation EGO, gives him at that time (in his mind). The common sense about it exists but it is right in our faces so we don't see it. The saying: "Beauty is in the eye of the beholder", is rather old.

It is common sense to realize that. Beauty is currently a manifestation of extensive separation. All of it is based on pictures. The pictures of who we perceive ourselves to be, all end at death.

So when I see a woman and I feel like this pull, a desire to look "into" her body, what I am really feeling is the desire to generate energy in my mind consciousness system. By design this is why the mind exists - to satisfy the belief/intent of generation of energy.

The belief that we need energy (feelings and emotions), came from the intent of experiencing energy (feelings and emotions). That, in turn, derived from the knowledge that we could do it (thoughts as consciousness). So what did? We create the mind consciousness system to be able to experience the feelings and emotions.

We changed who we are for the sake of energy.
What rules that are real is that free choice subdue to? Law of balance. So Polarity is created. We are unable to have energy going without it's polarities. Good and Bad.

In all of this; Equality is who we really are. The polarity creates nothing but abuse and suffering for some. Millions in fact! Only a few can live the good. And this is transverse "into" all points of this existence.
By living as the mind consciousness systems, we do whatever required to keep the polarity going. That this get us to destruction, simply because who we trully are is of Equality.

By looking at our world of jobs (generating energy as money) and perfection (having a perfect life with lots of beauty everywhere), and seeing that it is not getting how we desire to, on the contrary it is destroying itself, we can start to realize some of the consequences of allowing to have systems of polarity to be created while we believe we are enslaved to them.

Beauty is one the keys of this systems.
Ugliness and suffering is also created, separation is created as long as we align ourselves to beauty.
This self-dishonesty is not acceptable.

Love is less than Life... (Facebook Note)

2011-01-27T01:51:00.006Z

Em Português:
http://www.facebook.com/note.php?note_id=196439060373513

each one is one so 'we are one' is what is real

2011-01-11T21:55:00.018Z

If each one is one then 'we are one', is what is real.

Something, to be real, must be equal to all beings. All the rest is product of consciousness.

We are individuals -- each one, individually, is one
so, since all are one, what is real is that 'we are one and equal'.

Pictures as we see them give us a sensation of separation. That, is derived from consciousness, and is the nature of consciousness. Separation is the essence of consciousness.
We having been individualized somehow, indicates that we have separated ourselves through consciousness. That, is only one point in all that is the deception of consciousness. Love for instance as we live it as energy is the great deception, because instead of uniting, it separates 2 or more beings into a pool of energy, that is separated from society. The ones that think that consciousness as it exists is, what life is, are the one that try to be different. Again separation. Here separation i mean, from the perspective of clear common sense that we are all equal, yet having been individualize in the most varied shapes, sizes, colors, races, religions, ethnicity, cultures, etc... Wanting to be as "I AM, that what I AM", is abuse. That in fact is wanting to be special, and wanting to be special is, what who believes that consciousness is life, do, which is verifiable in their actual expression. Obviously, in this, consciousness is revealed was what creates. Consciousness is the instrument of creation, defines and separates, but is merely a tool. Life, 'on the other hand' is complete. So, there is nothing to create when life is life as one as equal. So if you live in the desire to create life, a better life as what we perceive better life to be, what the are we really doing? Don't you see the self-deception? We are only creating energy, living enslaved by energy as it creation.

Human example: If each one stops defining himself according to his personality, won't be all creating unity? understanding? Support? Tolerance? And thus Equality? Balance?

But. NO!... Having a... Being a Personality makes one feel so much better than that. Again energy present being created as a feeling or emotion.

Reverting the discussion to so called Real-life. What do religions create, isn't it... separation? And isn't the separation manifested enough, already in this world? Keep in mind that there are useful points in-each (teach information) religion. The biggest problem about religions is that, they create human beings that think that there are special beings in existance, in we connect with them then we are also special, and that, there is something more special to attain Than what we have Here on Earth, as HERE. There isn't! LIFE is about being HERE living in the simplicity of common sense and breath in the physical, manifesting as equality. In that context; What do religions have to teach that might be usefull? Islam for instance; Has Discipline. The planet does not stop. Nor the body. If we do not do what is required to support ourselves as supporting our body it will die rapidly. Discipline comes in handy as something that creates conditions to all exist equally, participating equally. (specially to direct what enslaved us that is energy, as feelings and emotions and obviously money) What about Respect? Respecting a older person as superior is complete self-deception and it is deceiving the older. That can only happen in a "tremendous amount" of self-dishonesty. The word "Tremendous" is meant to represent the fear . -- younger must fear the elderly, and the word amount/quantity --( miswrote wuantity.. "want-it"... "desire" to be more than ... lol -- that the elderly is more than the young.) represent the extention of it. All is lies and those lies are derived from the deception, that is the fact that, we live in consciousness and thus separation and we like because of the energy, never realizing that energy depletes, that implys, all that we create ends up destroyed, it simply... ends.

PERSONALITY

2010-07-14T11:36:00.003+01:00

Do we know what personality is?
Do I know what personality is?

How Many different personality's do I have?
How have I designed each one?
Or who and what am I blaming to justify the defense of these personality's?

What is personality used for?

EU E NÓS – DIFERENTES? "IT’S ALL ABOUT SELF" (Portuguese)

2010-02-07T07:36:00.004Z

Baseado nesta Noticia:
http://www.livescience.com/culture/090123-instant-message-couples.html

(nao liguem aos "LOL"'s, mais tarde tiro-os...)

A estatística diz que se os casais de namorados usam o contexto "EU" nas suas conversas mais do que "NÓS", tem muito mais chances de ter uma boa relação.
Percebem porque?

Tipo; Depois do casamento começam "as confusões" para alguns casais... Devem conhecer o problema. Alguns seres humanos intuitivamente, no global da suas vidas rejeitam essa prisão. É algo estranho e inexplicável!! lol
No fundo isto acontece porque a mente e o verdadeiro "ser" (humano) não são a mesma coisa, e na verdade a expressão de um ser só possivel quando ele existe completo em si mesmo sem dependências nem condicionalismos.

Se quiserem ter uma visão interdimensional da coisa, vejam a coisa por este prisma: Imaginem o planeta terra. Convêm que esse planeta, que visto de fora é um ser singular, sozinho completo, seja capaz de se suster sozinho. Imaginem que esse planeta apenas consegue subsistir dependendo de outra raça qualquer de outro planeta distante?!?!
Tem alguma lógica?? Esse ser é real? Esta a existir por sua auto recriação? Não. Voltemos ao contexto individual. Cada ser humano é um mundo. Um universo. O amor nessa equação não passa de uma afirmação de separação, no fundo.. uma energia, que é destrutiva. Sua função é a atracção entre 2 seres que se julgam separados, o que auto-recria essa separação porque as pessoas pensam que o que pensam é real. Correspondentemente o mundo é assim criado globalmente, com polos e separações.

Saltando de dimensão novamente: É empirico. O que acontece a um fruto quando amadurece? Amadurece leia-se; quando se transforma em energia? Morre. (para dar novamente fruto á semente.) É claro não é? -- Tal e qual as relações humanas!! Ou Não?? Vivemos (livres) até á adolescência, depois aprendemos a obter energia (desenvolver a personalidade e começar a namorar), depois quando amadurecemos (relacionamento e casamento) começamos a gerar energia (trabalhar para dinheiro), para então alimentar a nossa semente (filhos) o que leva inevitavelmente a envelhecermos e depois á morte. Vivemos então a maior parte do tempo a gerar energia (dinheiro).

Um "ser" para ser real é um ser que não depende de nada nem ninguem. No que toca a humanos isso refere-se principalmente a campo emocional e de identidade pessoal face aos outros .. também conhecido por.. "Ser Alguém". (LOL!!)
O amor não é nada mais nada menos que uma armadilha magnética que move o sistema de procriação e implica a geração de energia em que vivemos (Amor/Dinheiro). Vivemos num sistema como um sistema Vivemos julgando-nos inferiores e minusculos face a ele. No meio disso tudo pensamos o tempo todo que estamos realmente a viver!!!

É facil imaginar o filme "matrix" como ficção. Mas de ficção tem pouco. Metáfora e analogias sim bastante, mas ficção tem pouco. A ilusão em que vivemos “é” mesmo "gradiosa"!!
A verdadeira natureza do ser humano que ele proprio desconhece, manda-o então VIVER. E Viver não tem nada a haver com ter alguem "apenso" emocionalmente ou estar dependente emocionalmente de alguém. Dai reações polares de fricções no relacionamentos onde cada um se achou dependente do conjunto dos 2.

De certa maneira, o meu caso foi esse e, vejam-se os resultados.
Assim que entrei na adolescencia fui possuido pelo sistema. Cresci a pensar que se não tivesse uma namorada nunca conseguiria viver em condições. Assim o vivi. A minha vida tornou-se essas palavras literalmente. É a mente que cria, é verdade! Tal e qual como diz o livro/filme "The secret". Pois. Já não é mais segredo, desde 2008 salvo erro, que esse segredo foi publicado, da pior maneira; Ajudar as pessoas a criar mais amor e energia. Ou seja acelerar a conclusão do programa do sistema, mas sobre isso sugiro, fiquem para ver. Voltando ao “meu mundo”: mas, afinal, há mais vida no meu mundo do que Eu possa pensar. Pois no meu mundo, que é o mundo de tudo e todos á minha volta - As pessoas a minha volta sempre me disseram para parar com os sentimentos e pesamentos. Sempre ouvi frases tipo "pensas demais". Mas ninguem nunca me explicou porquê. Eu não conhecia nada, não entendia nada apenas me sentia abusado com a maneira que os outros me encaravam. Então, puz me a pensar a tentar analizar tudo no meu mundo para perceber o que estava errado. E assim fiquei, sempre na mesma. (Até aos dias de hoje). Para descobrir que o que estava em causa era a minha propria natureza. Essa natureza precede esta minha juventude muito largamente. É a natureza auto abusiva de pensar que sou dependente emocionalmente de outros para poder viver e abusar dos outros por olhar neles algo que eu necessito para existir. Consequentemente no meu mundo nunca me se me foi reservado alguem para eu abusar dessa forma, "abusando" oferecendo devoção e dependencia. Como um bom Leão de signo, é facil oferecer romantismo e devoção a uma qualquer Princesa-Beldade. Esse meu programa é independente da minha própria beleza, ou seja é a minha tendência comportamental de basear a sua propria existencia na “imagem dos outros”, ingnorando a minha propria imagem. Na equação a minha propria imagem é desconsiderada como existindo da mesma forma que a imagem dos outros existe para mim, neste caso como estímulo energético (amor/atracção/aparência). Veja-se bem só a disparidade em que os sistemas de consciência consequem funcionar. A parte virtual/mental consegue existir totalmente separada da parte fisica. Então no meu caso acaba por gerar a energia oposta da que geraria se tivesse a correspondente parte “querida”/prevista na realidade fisica do mundo real (meu corpo). E no meio disto tudo há outra descoberta tambem fascinante: A conclusão que em cada momento os meus pensamentos e percepções mentais criaram o mundo a minha volta com as limitações as quais eu percepcionava dele. É a parte da auto confiança. No fundo fui sempre eu que criei o mundo a minha volta. No fundo a Beleza existe apenas sobre a forma de auto-confiança e não nas aparências dos corpos. É facil ver isso não é? E convencerem-me disso? ahahah A foto está cá, manifestada criada, e não é bonita. A vergonha é muita, então implementar o novo auto-conhecimento é algo que leva tempo. Isto é, passar a sere viver no meu mundo apenas e só o novo conhecimento que tenho de mim mesmo. Está a levar tempo. A ver vamos. Quando for tarde demais certamente SABEREI. Lol... Mas, ok.. voltemos á polaridade propriamente dita e á dependência - o “Amor Perfeito”, ... "Eu sem ti, não sou ninguem", ... "Amo-te".

Quando pensamos que os pensamentos, sentimentos e emoções (base da consciência humana) são vida, estamos muito enganados. A minha juventude e crescimento prova bem isso!!
Se vêm novelas.. LOL podem ver como os média «tentam de alguma maneira passar esse "forbidden knowledge" sobre a ilusão do amor - A novela "Perfeito Coração" bom é exemplo disso. Denotem uma coisa; Se isso é deliberado ou não (conjuntura) é indiferente!!! (LOL!! quanto a isso só vos posso dizer, 'acreditem'! 'vão por mim', e, não há cá religiões!! lol)
O que é dito é real - e como podem ver no site acima, há estatisticas que o comprovam. Olhando á minha vida é o suficiente para o comprovar de uma maneira particular mas, em nada díspare. Relembro que o contexto é Ai Nós isto ...escondendo a dependência do outro como “Amor Perfeito”, ... "Eu sem ti, não sou ninguem", ... "Amo-te" Etc... Ouvir a música principal dos Gift nessa novela, é simplesmente algo que me deixa - no mínimo - enojado. Grógue mesmo. Não estou a brincar. É o senso comum a emergir e o olhar ás memorias do que ja passei por ter apego principalmente á imagem completamente feminina da mulher e aperceber-me do quanto me distanciei assim desse senso comum durante a minha vida e inclusive das mulheres propriamente ditas. (É no fundo um auto julgamento. Auto julgamento é umas das coisas que mais causa mal estar no estômago.)
Como exemplo figurativo ilustrativo e descritivo do tipo de consequência decorrente de aceitar e permitir viver da forma descrita acima; Fica então;

A interpretação da letra "Hoje Gaivota" dos "Gift" a qual pretendo expor como exemplo do contexto á relação que as 2 personagens(perSONnalidades) principais da novela vivem e como é tremendo o auto-abuso e abuso que permitem.

‘Desculpem’ Um offtopic ... mas; Sobre o nome da banda... acreditem!! O nome da banda não é por acaso. Para quem pensa que existem coincidências. Desengane-se! Pensar isso apenas revela que não estão informados do que é 'Real'. Indica também que são PESSOAS/perSONas perfeitemente normais. O mesmo é dizer que são seres que nunca se perguntaram nem perguntarão; "Quem somos?" "De onde viemos?","o que andamos aqui a fazer".. etc...É a maioria, e as respostas muito simples... A quantidade de conhecimento e informação inerente ás mesmas...é considerável) Mas na realidade todos sabem... o segredo está na simplicidade. Só que para isso é preciso conhece-LA!! Não é? (LOL!!!) Continuando....

Quanto ao Autor do poema Alexandre O'Neill - A seguinte interpretação é muito própria do contexto que venho a referir e o qual vivi como consequência. ("sofrer por alguém") Não dou garantias que, o que os autores ( o O'Neill e/ou os "The gift") pensaram, quando a escreveram – e refiro me ás palavras e imagens mentais que eles tenham "vivido" no momento da escritura do poema – seja igual á que lhe dou. A unica coisa que Eu posso garantir é que essas palavras mentais do autor e o contexto deste artigo, tem o mesmo fundamento que é; Consciência humana e toda a sua limitação e abuso que causa e em que ela existe.

Tema: 'Hoje' - “Gaivota”

Artista: 'The gift' - "Alexandre O'Neill"

1ª quadra

"Se uma gaivota viesse
trazer-me o céu de Lisboa
no desenho que fizesse,
nesse céu onde o olhar
é uma asa que não voa,
esmorece e cai no mar."

Tempo verbal... - Pretérito imperfeito - verbos "vivesse", "fizesse".. etc
- "Esperança"!! viver constantemente nas memórias, possivelmente de um desejo passado e efémero
"Gaivota " .. um Ser livre que voa
- simbolo que o "sujeito" estabelece-se separação/oposição do ser livre . Afirmação de que está preso e constragido de que não se voa e que existe uma expressão qualquer separada em que alguem voa. mas esse alguem certamente não é o "sujeito" do texto.
"Céu onde Olhar .. não voa . etc"
- A imaginação e o pensamento e a esperança da mente não são reais.. há percepção do que se vê/pensa parece que é real... mas não é, é efemera e morre/muta então, "esmorece e cai ao mar" .

1º Refrão:

"Que perfeito coração
no meu peito bateria,
meu amor na tua mão,
nessa mão onde cabia
perfeito o meu coração."
Bla bla bla... é uma pergunta .. "Onde está o alvo do desejo? Nunca mais vem porque?"
a melodia transparece também melancolia, obcessão e uma expressão "doêntia" .. "choramingo"/birrinha.. (winning... quase n lembrava do termo em portugues "birrinhas")

(2º quadra)

"Se um português marinheiro,
dos sete mares andarilho,
fosse quem sabe o primeiro
a contar-me o que inventasse,
se um olhar de novo brilho
no meu olhar se enlaçasse."

Este paragrafo descreve perfeitamente o que pode ser a lamúria romântica e dramática da "mulher que foi criada para ser a dona de casa perfeita é que anseia romanticamente por casar com o amor da sua vida - um homem Rico, Perfeito, Lindo, Romantico." O tal... "português marinheiro, dos sete mares andarilho,"
Mais sofisticadamente, temos "a foto" da mulher que ideializa o amor como encontrando homem macho lindo e rico que lhe dará todo o status social que ela pensa que é lhe dará entao a vida perfeita... "marinheiro ... andarilho" á espera que ele chegue um dia e lhe 'cante o fado(bata um couro' ..... "a contar-me o que inventasse, se um olhar de novo brilho" ... ou seja... e então assim a seduza... "...no meu olhar se enlaçasse" implicito está claro também a referencia muito interessante e real, que é ; 'é no olhar está o ser'... "o Eu está no olhar" isso é indiscutível!!...
(Side-note: Eu uso óculos por acaso!!! De tal maneira que... sou... Invisivel (LOL) aos olhos do comum mortal (personalidade). É claro que... como referido acima... isso teve um proposito específico de me proteger de abusar dos outros. Pois, não usar oculos e ter uns olhos completamente expressivos e então, se cativantes, me levaria a facilmente a "seduzi-los/as" o que facilitaria então a criação de relacionamentos saudáveis com outros em "consciência",e, o que levaria a estabelecer assim a dependências e viver uma vida de completo conforto e descontração... e, jamais descobria-se o que é afinal a ilusão e o "Real". Dito assim parece que sou especial ou, que estou muito á frente, LOL! Certo. Desenganem-se! Pensar isso é uma completa estupidez. Porquê? Porque ja existimos a milhores de anos há de calahr a todos!!! O processo é á vez..E é completamente individual conforme a natureza aceite de cada ser... apesar de have construções que são a base comum de toda a ilusao, uns são mais dependentes e apaixonados que outros...algums aceitaram a ilusão mais que outros. Então um dia.. encarnarão numa vida que lhes proporcionará questionar se o que aceitam e permite é realmente real e se é realmente 'VIDA'! LOL!! No meu caso, esta vida que estou a viver, serve para isso, e é a penultima ou última encarnação em que isto se acontecerá. Algums chamam-lhe uma "Window of opportunity" Mas até esses que mandam nesta merda toda, apenas pensam que sabem o que é real. Mas voltando ao amor - Isso eles sabem bem que é apenas ilusão. No meu caso - Se, nesta ou na próxima encarnação não deixar de acreditar no amor e na consciência, sei, com bastante certeza, que deixarei de existir. Cada ser, terá a sua oportunidade. Cada um pode no entanto, é acelerar esse processo de auto-conhecimento ou auto-remoção. Apenas vida restará "Heaven on Earth" Isto é... Todas as dimensões serão UMA só. Iguais entre si. Se quiserem pormenores de como isso é feito, perguntem-me!! Não se espera que sejam muitos interessados por isso é previsto que a existencia humana se reduza bastante em número. E não é de graça, então isso acontecerá por opção ou consequência. Ou restarão máquinas como no filme matrix as quais tem uma duração limitada e apenas uma pequena quantidade de humanos não dependente dos sofisticados sistemas continuará a especie como ser de corpo humano. Nesse contexto notem bem a índole do nosso primeiro ministro. Conseguem ver qual o caminho que ele escolheu. LOL - LEI-a-se; Sofisticação e Evolução... ou seja O das "maquinas" sistemas e da duração limitada. Tipo, ultimamente as LEIs que entram em vigor estão a obrigar a cada um individualmente a subjugar-se aos "sistemas". Esse 'sistemas' são sempre maiores que o próprio individuo... Empresas c/ cargos especializado e nunca generalizados. Assim se evita que o homem seja deus no seu próprio mundo individualmente. A sua subsistencia e conforto estão dependentes da aceitação de um sistema maior que ele, que é a instituição ou empresa, onde há a tal e energia que neste caso não se chama amor é mas sim dinheiro... novamente a dependencia, mas no fundo amor e dinheiro sao a mesma coisa não é verdade? aceitámos isso como sociedade, não é? Leram a parte em cima do Planeta e dos Aliens não leram?... Então podem começar a tirar as proprias conclusões, suponho.)

2º Refrão

"Que perfeito coração
no meu peito bateria,
meu amor na tua mão,
nessa mão onde cabia
perfeito o meu coração."

Bla bla.... "ah e tal pk é jovem" ..entao repetem novamente as lamúrias e a birrinhas o desgosto e a esperança. . AH! claro..!! Esperança indica também de que não se está disposto a fazer nada para que a "situação" (genericamente falando) mude. Esperança é tipo um entertenimento feito c/ sentimentos debilitantes por sinal, usados como justificação para evitar ter de se fazer algo - O papel da Sandra Barata Belo, é, pelo menos meu ver, bem forte nesse ponto!! Não digo "perfeito nesse ponto porque há personagens piores e ela muitas das vezes tá irritada e explode" Geralmente quem explode é quem ta farto e certamente vai fazer algo para mudar.."algo". Podem se ver tambem que de uma determinada perspectiva - e esta é mais uma das ilusões a desencobrir - "esperança" é algo muito mais danoso e abusivo do que agressividade. No entanto o aceite é exactamente o contrario. LOL!! "How deep must be the rabbit whole???" (Atenção que eu não sigo a novela, apenas vejo pedaços de episódios, esporadicamente... )

3ª Quadra

"Se ao dizer adeus à vida
as aves todas do céu,
me dessem na despedida
o teu olhar derradeiro,
esse olhar que era só teu,
amor que foste o primeiro."

"Se ao dizer adeus à vida"
O presuposto é claro... "See? I told you so" LOL
"Onde é que no meio de tanto sofrimento, está, que, levemente seja.... "Vida"?

"as aves todas do céu,"
Mais separação - "crença que existimos em separado dos outros",
é a "crença" que valída/justifica/cria ... o "desejo". ("eu xou axim", "eu xou axim"!)
"me dessem na despedida
o teu olhar derradeiro,"
Esta a parte é mesmo "á Leão" de signo... Drama e auto-vitimização .. lol ..o que e continua no proximo "verso"....

"esse olhar que era só teu,
amor que foste o primeiro."
OH sim!! Unico! Diferente! Original!! O ser acha.se inferior. Então o EGO... manda expressar o desejo orgulhoso, de estar ligado a algo/alguém único, para assim ser reconhecido e ser o centro das atenções. Essa necessidade de auto afirmação como superioridade é projectada no ser amado.
"foste o primeiro." (Yeah Right...! és "Especial" !! tázaver!??... de Corrida!!!!!!!! LOL )

3ª Refrão

Que perfeito coração
no meu peito morreria,
meu amor na tua mão,
nessa mão onde perfeito
bateu o meu coração.

E Repete a lamuria...

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Grande Alexandre O'Neill ... He NEILed It ("nailed it" - foi ao núcleo da questão)
Vi algo sobre ele, da biografia e obras. Ele era, (como qualquer pessoa normal diria) ...
"muito passado dos cornos!!" LOL Contribuiu um pouco para o acordar da humanidade ... Problema é que, a malta gosta de dormir... Sonhar então nem se fala!!! LOL

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Resumindo e Sumariando.
Não admira que... os jovens que se expressam livremente e SIMPLESMENTE partilham a sua vida com outro, e falem na primeira pessoa" EU isto EU aquilo", no fundo são pessoas que vivem muito mais. São mais estáveis e mais saudáveis do que os, que em oposição:
Na relação a dois, se focam na parte energética dependente do outro, olham então, mais ao outro do que a si mesmos, derivado a razões do género acharem-se inferiores, fracos e dependentes. E escondendo essa obecessão auto-julgamento, inferioridade e dependencia e projecção. Colocam no outro o que é suposto existir no EU. Nessa implicância, obviamente usam muito mais a palavra "NÓS".

Por outra palavras... Usam a palavra "Nós" para afirmar constantemente a ligação ao companheiro/a porque estão constantemente a projectar a imaginação e os ideais de perfeição e desejos no que gostariam viver com o outro (gerar energia com percepção do que fazem juntos ou mais relevante o que são vistos fazer pelos outros - ego de quem se acha inferior e quer forçosamente mostrar-se como superior - o que é muito vulgar encontrar-se).

Enquanto isso, deixam de estar no momento a realmente VIVER. (olha quem fala!! lol)
Não admira portanto que as relações durem menos!

Sem dúvida... Senso Comum!!
Sugestão então a para mim próprio:
Deixar a vulgaridade. Mudar para o senso comum.
Será que aceito o desafio? Quem sabe?
Sei (quem sabe) mas não digo, nem pergunto!!
senão a mundança não será real!!
será apenas uma imaginação... Ilusão.

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Destino é o mesmo que a Fonte. Na vida em consciencia humana esses pontos estão separados e disticos vistos como um principio e fim.
Revela que; Houve um desvio e uma separação! E, que do ponto em que nos encontramos vemos 2 pontos em vez de Um. Então vemos um programa com principio e fim.
Algo a alcançar. Para evitar recomeçar ciclos há que aplicar um unico conceito que é denominador comum a tudo:

Igualdade.

É portanto um ponto Inevitável.
Demore o tempo que demorar, é o unico ponto certo garantido mesmo que não o vejamos nem compreendamos.

VIDA só existe quando existir igualdade.
Então o "EU" floresce. Tal e qual os sms confirmam. União de 2 seres só existe como indenpendencia de cada um. Em que cada um é igual.
O outro não é mais do que o próprio. Só assim ambos prevalencem. A energia que geram não os controla. Eles controlam.se a si mesmo controlando a sua energia. Não a gerando á custa do outro. Assim ambos prevalecem estaveis. Se um deles estiver mal ambos estão mal, ou então separado.

(Percebem a analogia? Isto já me mensagem para as petroliFERAS ... LOL Fora portanto dimensão romãntica. Não da amorosa porque. OS donos da galp e companhia. Tem bastente AMOR ao dinheiro que roubam aos outros. Se têm amor á energia dos outros - dinheiro - é claro que..sugam-os, e bem não lhes estão a fazer, certamente!!)

"Makes sense?"

Word "Union"

2010-01-27T19:37:00.005Z

The word "Union"

There is still a lot of strange shit connected to this word inside me.
A fear. Fear of being alone. More specifically the fear of "being left" alone, by being rejected by them. Fear of being Abandoned by others.
A shame - Society as God again - Validity
Shit traumas of bad experiences with other kids in high-school.

Then...
The "Love connection" - Desires/Frustrations to be in a/connected to all that i lived as relationships with woman's and the valorization of the experience of intimacy as unitedness/union. and The EGO drive as self feeding stimulation of being in a superior experience of intimacy as a picture perfect presentation to others. A Dream Experience.

This are all points of separation that influence my participation in this world.

SELF-WORTH (CONNECTED TO UNION - UNITEDNESS)

2010-01-27T19:08:00.003Z

SELF-WORTH (CONNECTED TO UNION - UNITEDNESS)
(Written by Nuno Ricardo in 22 January 2010)

This is a big problem I have. Big problem because it is making me separated from the world (around me), and is something “that I have” because it is me allowing it. It leaves me in a sensation of being always in friction with something or someone. And then I develop the desire to be “united”, to be equal, which is a “friction” by itself.

Is that the cause of it? Friction? It’s is memories of past frictions, that’s for sure. Something that I have done and something that I haven’t done. Amazing. – Judgments about my past - This world as specificities and accordingly my parents tried to make me act according to them. They made the best they can do to make me have the same stimulation points. Those stimulations are fear of death, fear of hunger, fear of pain. I guess I don’t want those fears, because what I did was exactly opposite to what they always wanted/told me to do.

Well. Ok, then. Why would I do such an atrocity? Such a abuse – de-consideration – and abdication of responsibility?

What I know is that I grew with no particular interests or drives. Any “drive” to do something from my own initiative was always gauged and limited by my parents. That was how I felt “it”. As long as I wouldn’t ‘act’ according to the picture they have created in their mind (mind-set), they would do what they can to repress me and direct me to do what they thought I should do. Fortunaly for them, my nature is not of violence and aggressiveness. Pure consciousness will have its way, I guess of making ‘just-ice’. Seems that I believe in love and affection as a building block of participation in and as ‘living’. Affection being free though, not something forced. But, discussion about energy will be something to do later.

My live sums up to suppression. “Play with other kids” – Not allowed – It is “the street” and “playing in the street” that didn’t fit the ‘mind-set’ my father had for me. As any other parent that lived a fucked up experience in this world when they were young, from that, they also adopted that- “Give to my kids what I never got from my parents”- and interestingly enough, starting already in the late teenage, years I started to think the same – “If I ever have kids, I will never do to my kinds what my parents did to me.” – Right! What is making this strange shit happen then? The world around changes and the mentalities keep the same, merely fitting current world specificities. What is in common then in this “realities”? What existed back then when my grandparents raised my parents, that is still existing now while my parents “try to raise me”? – The need to survive I guess. – The fear of having poor conditions to live. – The Fear of what others might think (if we don’t act in the way we think others think we should.) – All is the same shit. Protecting the mind-set that we prepared for the experience of having kids. I guess I would do the same if knew what they knew. The point that was missed was the expression. ‘That’ moment where I started to reveal needs/wants/desires that didn’t fit the ‘mind-set’ I was subjected to, I was aggressively repressed and conditioned and punished. Well I took countless beatings yes and had my ears pulled a lot. Not a very pleasant experience.

Now. Is all this to blame my parents? To stay stuck in the past and define myself by this past?

What have I at hands to deal with then? Well. First, the resentment. It is the feelings directly connected with the memories of the past events. Unknowingly, those feelings mould the way I express myself. Not a pleasant sight. It makes me reactive and thus vulnerable to whatever other beings randomly might say or do. I easily allow me to be disturbed by whatever others beings do. Even their presence – Amazing!! – makes me uncomfortable. When I was younger the feeling was much clearer but as the time gone by, that feeling got compressed and compounded with the needs/wants/desires that meanwhile emerged as the need to create myself as “A Personality”.

Let’s say; When I was abused, and I developed fear and guilt of doing the slightest movement in expressing myself on my own initiative. This became the essence of me. I allowed myself to become this. As a child I had nothing more to hold on. I never saw other than that. I never knew better so I as the “need to be someone” emerged, lol… I became this. I searched a lot for it because I didn’t even saw what was happening to me. I started to see knowledge as trustworthy as I searched to understand the basics of why I was so limited and others weren’t. But this journey was so intense that eventually I used that experience to define as someone “great” ebcasue of having achieved that knowelege about myself. I became ”Someone knowledgeable” when seeing what I have discovered by my own, and how I did it by myself. Funny that my father does exactly the same once again. Another point where I clone my father. He always saw himself as a institution of reason and righteousness. It is the fucking EGO emerging no mater the status quo. No matter if there is common sense or not. The EGO does not care about what one uses to define oneself. As long it is comprehensible in-formation, which we can use to think that “others might understand too”, It creates a ‘mind-set’ where we become valid to do and think whatever we want (whatever we thought before). Never caring or realizing the abuses or consequences it might have on the world around us and on us individually.

This is all rather comprehensible. So, to realize all that it is the easy part. What is not so easy to see the ways that those past events of my youth, sculpt what I do and how I act towards ‘things’/events around me. How easily I separate myself from the events I face in during my days – even in the participation in desteni process - by perceiving what is happening and judging what is presented to me from my world.

Easily see my world in separation, or when it does not happen, I think that I have some limit about it. I think that what happens to me as a mirror of who I am accepting myself to be and become, actually IS who I really am. “Which is fucked up shit”… lol. Constant traps that I don’t know if are traps of the matrix, or me assisting me. Most times, I spend a lot of time analizing the events around me, trying to see if they are common sense as examples or mirrors of deception. Within this my own self will is still non existent.

If I try to creat a mind-set where I see all the information about what I do, that is depending on what exists in me as memories, well maybe that it is the consequence already so I would only be recreating those situations by perceiving and maybe judging them, but the perception is enough to create disturbance (resonance). What I can do is go progressively through all the memories that come up and slowly forgive me as my parents for continuing allowing the feelings and reactions in me. I know that the thoughts feelings and emotions that come up are not of ‘pure life’ as me expressing me here in the moment, but instead, hidden shit that I lived in the past and that I am unknowingly bringing here and living according to it again in the new situation that is being presented in the ‘now’ as the moment “Here”. Any reaction as feeling within situation of conflict, and within the context that is mainly situations where I participate in conflict, where I am directly involved in reaction to what other beings – whatever who they are – do speak or express. It can be desires suppressed. Desires that, with time and repeatedly generated anger in me, which I have accumulated and forgotten. Some even was physically expressed as actions. It was merely ‘felt’ and suppressed, either with other feelings (compensation) or with other thoughts (judgments) where I could secretly create a sense of self were I was feeling superior – or to the beings towards I was reacting or to the situation itself- as long as I was able to create a feeling to overcome or balance what I was feeling, all could be done in secret, in my heart and mind. Consciousness is so deceptive isn’t it? (LOL) As long as the Fears are undelt with and we are able to balance the ‘bad’ feelings with the ‘good’ feelings we are cool to go (we can pretend it is). Right..! The “pretty-end” it is – the ‘mind-set’ we can ‘cre(h)ate’) Meanwhile. The point that originated all those reaction keeps buried deep in the deep caves of the earth. This is… in the guts. Swallowing yet another moment (memory) where I ‘think’ I react right, when in fact I reacted according to feelings and emotions. So in this I keep on living a disgust (this-guts) ing life.

Does this makes any sense? Is this what I want? Is this dependency what can make me free to live?

What remains from all this. All that remains is that, currently, I am responsible about what I think and feel. I am 34 years old. Correction. My body is. And that time was enough to raise my awareness of who I am as life. Practically, there is no use in blaming parents for this, or else I will stand as inferior to the situations in a complete victimization mind-set influence. Although, what can I do to get rid of this, is something less defined. I can speak the forgiveness but still see the finding practical actions, a bit hard to implement. This happens also because of living without money to spent, and overall move and express whatever in this world. It requires money – Energy. A victimization point too, when realizing that I have to earn money myself and have not habit of doing it. Doing it rationally has been simply useless. Earning money is the same as any other initiative that I don’t know shit about it, and I must still do it trusting nothing other than me. This is something new, so is something that wasn’t yet created “nor seen” by me. Lol Again the mind trying to define. - So what was created until now was the deception, as reactions and the suffering of repeatedly going though it.

Expression different than that, is what about was not yet created or considered. Is the realizations and the decisions to change whatever ended up being created by the allowing the deception (of feelings and definitions). It is; To see what the mind-sets wanted to project in the surroundings, see what is practical from there, and see what can remain within changing what has to be done, to being done by one self. By own initiative. And stop all the satellite energies. Because as long as the energy is created and applied inside the mind, and not in the physical (reality) nothing changes. I must find myself what it means and, yes… since it is new unexplored territory, maybe I have to do things that “won’t work” as I would expect, or experiment.

Within that, the writing and dealing with all the reactions, forgiving them, is something that is not less important and effective thing to do. Forgiveness and self-honest are things, eheh (too), because they are something that if done can promote change. So if change takes place then they are not useless mind “clutter”.

As someone said; Forgiveness is the ultimate statement that I am willing to change. This is practical stuff. “Thing”(LOL)

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to…. (For example) Become a slave to reactions against my parents. – I state that from now on, I wont allow myself to react to my parents actions , within the realization that it is purely energetic event that is generated by the thoughts that I have lived before when I was younger, and words and pictures in the mind that make me occupied ignoring dealing practically with what is HERE in the current moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to establish my self-worth (as a mind-set of invisible self-judgment) in relationship to the words my parents spoke about me all my life, and from that perceptions develop feelings and emotions whenever someone tells me what I must do. – I don’t allow myself to think that I am unworthy and limited or uncapable, only because i was always told that I was so.

From here I myself, created in my mind and, ‘extended’ that ‘mind-set’ to other things that have nothing to do with parents. For instance; meeting other people. A simple suggestion in a class while studying with colleagues. Emiting opinions in a conversation. Participating in a group of friends(people) without having preconceived ideias echoing about them in my head.

I also created a mind-set based on that self deception, where my picture – A picture of my body – was the main point about it.

I connected fear with my picture. I connected fear with the way I speak. I connected fear with the perception of others speaking about me. Oh yeah big point. I connected fear with others presence. If I perceive others then I feel anxiety.

This anxiety is more related to the wants/needs/desires emerged with the thrive to become “A PERSONAlity” yeah right… persona-lie-tie. Connecting lies (thoughts definitions judgments) with a sense of self. (because being a persona is still information is not something visible actual physical act that promotes life, specially as equality!!! Thus why being a person is merely to have a sense of self in relation to something (or others)… yes always dependent on something/someone external) LOL!
Having a great personality is so overrated. It is the ultimate affirmation that one is dependent on others!! Ahah Hilarious!!

Ok then… “Finally” this brings me back to self-worth. My current issues about self-worth is about what I have done and not done. It hurts (I guess) - or at least it makes confused - to see that doing things in this world, to me is apparently difficult, while others do it apparently more easily. Big self deception here echoing constantly in every look I take at my life currently. Defeat is also a word that is holding up cohesive a sense-of-self. This is somehow clear when I turn on the webcamera and look at the way I move my face and my eyes . Bah Shame regret guilt fills up my mind in every moment. This is a legacy. I am so full of this shit. This must end though. I am not valued by this, although this encompasses information about what I have not done, because I allowed myself to be busy with the feelings and reactions and thoughts. Specially of fears and justifications thereof. Bah this is really dis-gusting. Cannot allow it anymore. How do I change? Yes because it is me that must change or else nothing happens?

What can I do besides realizing and forgiving??? I feel really uncomfortable in saying that.

Spaking the forgiveness is also something that, to which I am developing some resistance. Because it is not actuall change the change must be lived in expression in actual physical actions. And even stopping and moving throught this resistance is one of those points. Argh! I always thought that the Taurus stubborn people had all the self will in the world. Right, this is enough to thing about me as not having that self-will. And even more simply, not being equal to those beings. The essence of separation . this kind of thoughts perceptions. Yeah they have the astrological sign programming. They doing naturally, no effort. They don’t have to make efforts to be stubborn or to have self-will. Interesting we will only be complete when we become all the sign as self. Taurus self-will and determination, Leo – experience of Love and Sexuality (emotional expression), Sagittarius - Simplicity and effectiveness, no bullshit and blank slate start-overs, Aries – Initiative and practicality, Gemini – Seeing the duality (both sides of the ‘coin’), Virgo – Organization and Focus, Scorpio – Politeness and Respect, Cancer – Art of parenthood, Aquarius – Altruism and Consideration, Pisces – Creativity and expressiveness (art), Capricorn – Creation of Structure in the physical (work), Libra – Moderation and balance.

Well. Enough knowledge display. This is what it feels to say all that about signs. So… All this not to further create definition and separation, by defining human beings as existing in separated like that where some have only some characteristics and others others. Which they had because that is the mind programs. But from now on.. To, within the change, force one to become all those ‘characteristics’ (characters) as one human being. All HERE as me as one and equal as life. Not to be special and greater than others, but to become complete once again after all the scattering (separated-characters) that one has allowed by judging (thinking of) others and self as being separated and defined. The has been happening for eons of time. The changes have no date scheduled to start. Can be done at any moment. And I don’t need religions too making me believe that the world is round and that there are invisible beings that are controlling it. Each one can see in his world how shit is happening and decide to change, not matter how hard it can be. When all decide to see others as equals, then the ideas that there must be a god, (a polarity of a slave being) there won’t exist generation of excessive energy, not the correspondent waste of it, because the ‘friction’ that the poles imply will be no more, since there will be no poles. Energy will exist equally available to all. As you can see this relates to energy like life support and physical energy as petroleum and love as energy to the mind. Though… “Too much love will kill ya!” As energy does when you blast a atomic bomb. Same thing. No difference. Heaven (mind) and Earth, has always been equal in all ways. Addiction and abuse, always creates death.

What is worth then? Energy (feelings) or Self (humans “physical” body)?

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Compressed in this discussion ....

The desire to be accepted as the only way to be valid.
The Fear to be perceived by society as feeling fear. EGO as GOD.
Beleif/perception that the Society is GOD and it says we need the fear of survival. We need to survive.

Based on the articles still to come.
Bowing to society. A Sense of treason against society, and the supressed Anger about it.
(S.R. "Nose" Point)

"Reality" or "One Reality"

2010-01-27T18:04:00.007Z

Reality
Realities
Real-I-ties

Ties that I do to what is real...????

"Reality" is a word that still does not refers what is "really Real", because the word that - as it exists - means that there is separation. The meaning of the world is still of definition and limitation. It implys that there is knowledge and information that separates/defines parts of existances into names that are "realities". "This reality X", "that reality Y..." etc...

"One reality" mean... ALL of existence. All as one. No separation. Not even individual's.

We can redefine the words or live it as self dishonesty thinking and believing that we are separated from existence within and as existence.

Update:

One Reality is still a "tie" of what is real.
So is it real? No. It is only knowledge.
A Symbolic word used to comunicate meanings of what is real.

The Resonant seed 1
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mjJnHx2gZDY
The One the two the three - The word - The number

Fear me, I Fear myself - Am I Fear?

2010-01-09T02:21:00.004Z

fear is what fucks-up all. it mirrors much more than the will. it means that it exists in much more intensity and presence than pure will to express.

Am I Fear? Do I believe in this fear? Is it real???????

medo é que estraga tudo .. espelha muito mais do que a vontade, quer dizer que existe em muito maior intensidade e presenca, do que a pura vontade de expressao

Eu sou este medo? Eu acredito neste medo? É real???????????

"Feeeeear 'meeeh'!" (self)

One reality - Can it change or not?

2009-12-22T19:03:00.005Z

People say that we can't change Reality? It is the way it is and we must accept it. This is a clear belief that separates humanity from LIFE/Nature/Expression, because it locks human beings awareness in their individuality. This creates lack of common sense and submission to systems. The way the world exists as systems, so yes, if you accept blindly that you are a slave - a piece of the system (participant), because that's what support's you - then yes obviously you wont be able to change the system. But the system is you. So if I give power away to the system, obviously the systems will be my god, my creators, not me.

- But... Why change the system? -

Is every individual living in comfort?
Is every single individual of this world, eating sleeping expressing himself as others do?
Is every single being happy and effusive about his life?
Is every one's reality equally supportive?
Is every single beings expressing equally within the skills he has? Is he even exploring those skills that is who he really is? Or is he just living doing what the systems orders him to do.

If am one reality, then I am this one reality that is called the World.
I am my world. I am one reality.

So - 'And if I am One reality, why can't One Reality change itself? Become Equal to itself/within in itself? Even if that reality is individualized from others? Reality is ONE world, in which we ALL live in.' -

I cannot accept this limitation by believing that Reality is something separated, out there from me.

MEDO (Fear) vs Consequencia vs Controlo

2008-09-13T13:34:00.013+01:00

Post que vem na continuação de
uma resposta neste forum: nesta mensagem

O Tópico em questão, é, o poder criativo da mente. Que abrange TUDO o que pensamos e sentimos. Isso nos será espelhado pelo mundo que nos rodea. Medos inclusive.

ok tocaste no ponto mais "sensivel" mais fulcral

os acidentes que acontecem, é certo, que nao acontecen apenas por EGO excessivo (e bubadeiras está ligadas tambem)

O MEDO--- .... não é NADA aconselhavel... deixar sentir medo e brainstorm about it

2 exemplos

1º => SEM MEDO: [.. mas com falta de self-awareness (= falta de atenção)!!]

[youtube]Np26f6ofw0k[/youtube]
Ligação ao Video no Youtube

Sobreviveu sem grande stress aparentemente.

2º Exemplo => COM MEDO

As avioes serie MD-80 ...
A avião da spanair caiu era MD-8xx qq coisa
Èra igual ao aviao que caiu em "Phuket" = MD-80 e qq coisa... tambem.. ok...

vaos dizer que ... "ah... entao verifica.se que esse avioes tem problemas e tem de ser parados como foi o concorde... é so isso ... problema de design tecnico velhisse do manterial .. n tem nada de transcendente"

uhmmm será?

É assim:

Bem... não de facto, ha outra explicação... um pouco menos palpével... sim mas certamente
verificavel por cada um proprio de nós...

[youtube]LxPfM_ejq04[/youtube]
Ligação ao YoutuBE Video

ALGUMS
EXEMPLOS DA VIDA REAL:

No Acidente da Spanair... aviao hesitou... as pessoas ficaram 1 hora e meia dentro do aviao antes de levantar...

Ora ... certamente essa hora e meia foi mais que suficiente para gerar energia mentar sobre a forma de MEDO... (150 pessoas +-) para dar cabo do sistema que controlava la o estado dos flaps--- (fusivel da luz avisadora )

MAIS EXEMPLO (este experiencia propria):

lol posso te dizer que... semanas antes de me roubarem o carro...
pensei todos os dias e "temi" que isso poderia acontecer!!! LOL

esse é so 1 pequeno exemplo...

tu pensares que algo pode correr mal... é criares a experiecias que permitiste "pensar sobre" nem que seja daki a 10 anos podes ter que viver essa expereriencia. Se por acaso tiveres o teu mundo manifestado (criado) de maneira tal que esse medo nao vai ser possivel manifestar-se (acontecer), entao em vez de acontecer na tua vida vai acontecer na vida de outra pessoa... porque todos estamos ligados pela mente inconsciente.

outro exemplo...

"ai tenho medo de nao conseguir falar com akela ou akelôtra gaja..."

=== > ups nerd... get lost. levas uma tampa...! certinho direitinho... ou praticalidade fisica... é tao bonito que a gaja caga pa se tar a sentir medo dela ou nao... claro.. essa parte ... "faz parte" dessa situação... lol

+ 1 exemplo

"AI O GATO ESTA NA JANELA PODE CAIR -- FEXA A JANELA -- (num predio de 4 andares)... "
passado 1 semana ... "ups! " o gato cai e morre.

etc...!

Noto que há pessoas mt estaveis neste tipo de pensamentos emoções... "por acaso".

Ah..!! so mais um...

Governo noticias e crime

carjacking assaltos noticias noticias noticias noticias noticias noticias noticias noticias todos os dias... a levar com isto

o que cria nas mentes das pessoas... pensamentos do pior e ===> medo...!!!!!!!!!! "uups ah é???" lol passado uns tempos o crime aumenta...! "oh q chatice..." "ja viste este mundo em que vivemos"! "dahh dass!!! so á chapada ... ha que ver que o mundo que vemos é espelho do que pensamos e sentimos PORRA!

ainda a uns dias, em conversa com uma pessoa sobre isto... ouvi dizer que alguem emitiu um comentario sobre isto mesmo... que nao se havia de passar na TV muito do que se passa---

o tema já nao é de agora...

epah vou continuar isto no blog .. aki nao é sitio para escrever sobre isto...

Cumps

Ok ... (continuando)
por isso é que se diz "TURN OFF YOUR TV"! you are being controled and brainwashed

é pau de 2 bicos ... por um lado mostra o mundo real.... assim é possivel conehcer o mundo real... o que os policias conhcem, sao os poucos que conhecem o que real é real...!!!
mas por outros instiga e inevitavelmente cria o sentimento de medo que por sua vez faz aumentar o problema em causa.

Solução.... lidar com o que ESTA AQUI... no momento ... "not minding"
Conhecer como funciona a mente... a sua origem... o seu proprosito e assim poder tomar responsabilidade e direccionar a nossa vida nos proprios em vez de deixarmos-nos levar pela programação/educação tipica da mente de consciencia. (Ser humano = aos outros = mesmos medos = mesmas manias = mesmas jugalmentos das coisas = desejos = quereres, etc... tudo é programado na mente a medida que crescemos na nossa familia)

Há que ter atenção que a mente humana é um sistema programavel e limita a expressão de cada ser humano. Conhecendo estes factos. So assim se pode tomar direcção - cada um individualmente - de forma a que todos sigam em Igualdade sem abusos.

Learn to Read Own Body III

2008-08-19T00:25:00.004+01:00

This is about examples that here taped and unfolded today... "that"
comple-mented (completed) the awareness and allowing to publish this specific topic, and also, to finish the "Learn to read onw body II" writen 4 montsh ago, as follows:

EXAMPLE:

I sit on chair... I judge chair and me.

Chair as not being ergonomic... (I judge chair = thought)
Me as having weak body structure that is easyly hurt by sitting for long hours... (I judge myself = thought)

once this engages in the minf, burning sensation on calves (lower leg) appear... I touch skin on legs... nothing...!! its cold...!! wft!!?!?!

Then
If i focus on the burning sensationm instead of stabilising me with breath as me HERE, skin actualy starts to heat up and... keeping this for several days actualy manifests redness and spontaneus skin tissue infection. Amazing it is.

What is Trancendence... "here".

The Breath and self awareness HERE... with no thoughts.
This happens in awareness (of...) standing up, as I stop this thoughts and judgments (do not allow them in my may) and do Self-Forgiveness.

By stoping the mind(ing) as focusing in who-I-am here... as what i am doing... and as all that surrounds me;

I let go of those 2 points... of judgments...
Then... trancendently... I am able to stay 4, 6 or almost 8 hours sitting continously and
almost no hurting or hotness or pain sensation in the legs.

If not...
i can continue minding... then in less then 10 minutes my legs hurt more than.. "who knows what"

So...I stop the mind.
I trust me as the breath here as life.
Be... Life.
Exist.
Express.
No thougt.
Transcend the physicality.
This develops within finding this trancendence in the most assorted experiences of "daily life".
About That Experiences I will be writing in next posts.

Tourism and Work

2008-07-17T14:51:00.002+01:00

Tourism and Vacation... How does it really work.

By "stoping the mind".

Usualy you have a pre-ordained pre-programmed set of knowledge as thoughs manifesting.

Thoughts used your life essence to manifest in the Matrix of the 3D limited existence, thus create it in every monent, as the fucked-up world we live in.

So when you go in vacation, for one moment you forget... and delete all those thoughts that consume you during the year ,thus one ages because of that, life essence depletion.

One sees it as
"Ah so glad i go in vacation and fuck it all.. forget about work."

yes it really works that way...
now see what is causing that tiredness and stress is of the mind.
one only acctually lives 1 month each year, and some even not that.
few that work in self expression, are able to enjoy it and actually dont feel wasted, they have some kind of awareness in self preservation as not using mind a lot.

KISS technic to its exponetial

its actually more than that... its transcendence!
when the true being that is me (you) emerges and actually manifests within awareness, not rationality and intelect, then perfection of life is birthed on the physical, moment after moment.

stopness and hereness keys (within and as music)

2008-05-19T23:53:00.003+01:00

stopness (of the mind) and hereness (of self "here") keys ( on playing he keys of the piano lol)

I like music so... something just happened, in process... Something…

FFFFFOOOOOOOOOOkin amazing... !!!

I seted up gear some days ago .. playd a bit...
sound very quiet and i was feeling tired ... end of the day... was late.
so not much pleasent sounds came up.

but today i just played a bit and... something happened ..
but some background first

I had tryed self-expression before lately... in one specific oportunity as music

some weeks ago... at a friends house...

there the awareness within processe... was more on ... 2 specific points

1. i assumed ... i must have no though ... and melodys come out naturaly ( trancendently) and so let me alow to visit this friend his new gear, know a bit more of it and ...and allwing to glinpse that self expression as jamming a bit... ( i hadnt played the piano for years then)

( hey... carefull lol i am not that talented... i have the melody but not the eye-hand movement coordination ability to do it perfectly... i did jam 10 years ago... producing +- 11 tracks, and always used the computer to fix the arranjements... arranje them as fixing them literaly.. no way i could do live performance, no skill on fingers for that... yet ... lol)

2nd. ... my friends pride... trying mno to manifest it as the oposite side of the polaroity... as i saw him trying to things in music because he enys me for what i did... hurts his pride... some dark-and-not-admited background we had with this guy... (mindly speaking) we fought .. mentaly not physicaly... lol ... anyway continuaing

so... i was there.... at those times pretty confidant on what was stoping the mind and not allowing much thoughts and feelings...
meeting that guy, once again, was for centain a self-test... as he is/was/is so fokin EGO-centric...

so i was on the piano and he was changing the sounds browsing the sound program banks of the gear... and finally we setted up one program ( composed sound) in the synth that really pumped my feeling in the music... so i, in one small moment... confidant with no thought... yet ... inatively ignited by the specific sound timbre and frequancy resonance... started playing some cool notes chords... well defined... and exuberantly loud... so for one instant i saw a glinpse of self expression (as i defined it... lol) but .........

inevitably... my friend noticed it and

imediatly huge reactions within in ignated too... (i supose). Because... he got up ... stiff, harsh mean looking. as wanting to look strong... but... certainly looking hugely nervous... or ... hurt pride... or hiding shamed... (lot like gabriel looks sometimes... same exact face expression..lol ...) in rushing to the windows to close them... suposely in shame and worry of what neighboors might think when earing such as lets say... simphonic ... determinded ... impressive exuberant manifestaion "performance" as music ..comming out of his house... and i cares that no one knows him by that... its unsual lol so....

well i realised it like that... because... its what i had too... same kind of reactions when my expression is exuberant... the surrounding world... desestabalizes lol deeeep in foundation...lolllll (found-damn-nation) and built in insecurity as of fearing the reactions of other when expressing in such a free exuberant format (such expression...) ... settles in ... as other people are not used to see us/me as it, so when they see ... they attack as humiliation of ignoring in no consideration... and their pride is hurt as not facing presenciating something that was not at any way expected by them...

(weee extensive SF to go ..whowoooo! what a ride! <---- coolness fooleness hihihihi) i think... also the feeling and impression the sound made, could certainly also ignited that fear of unknown in him... inact natural shyness since what was emited there in even-if tiny moment... was not at all on expected experience... and the "sound frequencys have unknown effects" on peoples minds (llol) as "you could guess..." i have all those above too... and realising it all that in one momente ... completly broke me... and anxiety rose within me... i literaly felt like i was falling braking apart in as roting and then the pain of the anxiety hit me... i stoped and focused on breathing and contineud playing... "nothing!" well... in certain way... i predicted that something would happen. becaue i allowed me to go into the "mouth of the wolf" to see clearly what i had to forgive /process ... but even now .. typing this seem that theres even more specific forgivenes to do... lol . it hurts!!!! ouch!! but continuing... back to the rest of the story ... what really placed me here. typing all this... was my recent experience in music... just a few minutes ago.. playing in my "piano".... my directive principal when allwing me to go into play music in piano.. is presently, to do it in self expression so ... no thoughts... just expression... either amazing or not... usualy it is... when no thoughts are here... but presently i regarded more ... the mechanical... physical aspect of it... i usualy have not very flexible finger movements and it really hard to hit the keys correctly ...at the same time that what i feel is flowing on melodic changes and harmonies... as what we call "feeling" (musical) it requires training for shure... but ... i am here is charing the trancendance i experienced in that... is like... even from one seccond to another... if mind is or not reacting and compounding past feelings and experiences... .... it is the diference between... i playing one arranjement that i took by ear from one old song.. as if, i were doint it for the first time... all crippled and missing the notes/keys... and as-if, i were a complete master super confortable and confidant in placing my fingers on they keys in precise timming and correct note ... correspondly. and i didt it ... so so so defined... "for one moment" i just played so well... some parts of that arranjement... as i never saw me confident doing it before... and all that was required to do it... since i already had it all memorysed .... was to be aware of me here as looking at the keyboard and keys... just realising it presence... nothing more... and allowing the fingers to to correct key in precise timming... and the harmonies and rythm just expressedd amaaaaaaaazingly "fidel" to original lol. so... the first experience i described... is getting a tap on what is me.... as experiencing me as-no-thoughts in-one-moment, which was amaxing... and this second experinc... e was expressing in that same impressive way... as focusing in the awareness-of-HERE... pure-hereness ... As mind... you can call it... it was a confirmation of "what is" (among other things) self-expressing with thought and as awareness of self here .... stoping the mind... so it is not dumbness or dullness or boredong... it is beauty of sound and amazing expression. maybe soon i am able to add to that, all-in-one-monent, the aplication as the breath, and be able to keep it flowing, not only during one single moment... (few seconds), but out far as whole song or a complete hour playing the piano!! lol ))

thats not really hoping... its what i will accept and allow within me expressing .... to happen (exist) as music... me expressing .. i am music ..in-the-moment as me... with no thoughts feelings and emotions of mind as desires and worrys and wanting of playing well

Learn to read own body II

2008-04-28T14:10:00.009+01:00

(Writen in April 2008 - Revised and PUBLISHED on 19 August 2008)

The specifics ... how it "works".

Manifestations of interdimentional mind consciouness systems constructs...

PAIN IN KNEE - Personaly... once i have a pain in my left knee... i see that in the moments before... i have allowed myself to express me according to EGO or consciousness... as a mind fuck... allowing me to express according to defend my EGO ... a simple "lol@someone" doesnt cause it... its a bit more sneaky than that... so... once i see I start to have similar pains... i see that i have in recent "times" allowed some behaviours and attitudes that defined me... and that only seek to defend the EGO... not who I am as life unlimited as expression.

LOWER LEGS - Hotness Redness And Infections

See "Learn to read own body III" post... it complements this present writing:

It is "also" is a ... simpton that ... I am not following programmed stuff in daily life - not doing it
MEaning... i thought i had something to do... but i procrastrinated... but instead of supressing (forgeting and forgetting that I have forgotten) i stay aware of "that" I wanted to do... manifesting in the background "in my mind"...

So... within me... it -> generates a friction of the mind consciousness system ... wanting to do/not doing... wanting to do/not doing ... wanting to do/not doing... It compounds as thoughts .. so much that body wont take no more memories of this thoughts...

Upon this compressing and compounding... "Guilt" cames up... as entrapment... as worrys, self judgdements... of ineficincy etc etc etc,...

So.. all that mind shit will dissipate... if it is still allowed... then Imediatly manifests, the release of that as that "illness".

BODY HEATING AS MIND-FUCK RELEASE DISSIPATION... ON OTHER HUMAN BEINGS

I noticed that also it in some beings... exteeeeensive!!!!!
A being I know "personaly", has "hotness" (LOL no.. real ºC hotness!!) in the whole body, after moments that he aparently has brainstorms.
He completely ... heats up... and starts to swet... rivers!! One can see the swet drops falling of his face...nose and his cloths wet. To the point, that he must go "out" (example, if he is on a bar) and take coat off, to cool down.... Amazing this guy. This happens to him like ... No Doctors ever here able to tell him what is going on with him. lol... how surprising ("nooot!")!!!

EYE LID TREMBLING
System construct manifested in eye lid... lack of self awareness 'here' - allowed pressure not stoping the thoughts that originate it.

After some weeks, monitoring it... i found it manifest more extensively when I alowed mannerisms ... see: http://www.desteni.co.za/forum/viewtopic.php?t=6721

Cool! to be aware... i had some SF on this already! Some already unfolding.
Thats "Cool"!

PIMPLES ON SHIN ---

Pimples -> Its Supressed anger...
Shin -> Shame i am IN

LOL... havent found this yet... just became clear as I just wrote this...!! :D

Ok... some legacy awareness on this manifestion:
Some specific situations became aware... A sister had it some years ago to... so.. maybe yes... PROCESS is started some years ago... BODY does not tolerate any more anger within... so after she ended up with her BF... in the next day... all pimples...!! hurt pride... etc etc,, the tipical of relationships... (LOL thats topic another post.. its already a draft)

My pimples I have them on base of nose and shin... Nose is base knowledge as the world is defines... so... I would say ... society fundamentals limitation... and shin... its my accpeted nature... as shame! sculpted from situations in teenage years, that made me became a angry . And THAT Anger became me... as my style and way of being... needing to look rough to be considered strong and stable... Out of fear of not being accepted... oh boy, oh boy, oh boy!!

Before process... health body events

Had kidneys sharp intense painsd !!!!!!! FUUUUUUUCK... I jumped! lol it hurted---
Like someone just pinched kidneys...inside... not in skin above it...

Interdimentionaly i came to know that... that acute pains are release.. body releasing memorys ... similar as crying... anyway; Being KIDneys... the affected point... SEE I was acting like... KIDding myself.... allowing me to manifest as behaviours that... not contribute to my self direction and expression witihn my life.

PINCHED PAIN ON SHOULDER

Yep... lol Had it in the right should lately April 2008... It Imediatly stoped... after going to structural resonance documents and take a look to what it relates ... and becoming aware of what points are due to do self forgiveness... so notes taken (on SF notebook text file)

Fears and anxietys also dissipate with SF
ANXIETY IS FEAR... as pain in solax prexus... just below chest and above belly... inside.

Also called movement (energetic remaining feelings) in solar plexus ... those pains and feeling,
will indicate a point that is being overcommed... In breath or by lacking some self-forgiveness
in some very specific but fulcral point... or... layer that is not yet within awareness on process.

My fingers hurt too... but thats because of too much cliking and typing... all day long... lol
I was not yet able to see what points in my life are contributing to this specificaly... althoug i have some suspitions... "LOL" In another topic/post... it will be expounded.

Learn to read own body

2008-04-13T14:34:00.004+01:00

Human body stands-up as life...

So when you use the mind... he warns you.

specific or not...des-eases, illnesses, sorenesses, etc... manifest.
All specific... but... All due to the use of the mind, specific or not.

more on this...

Ahaha.. Ruben.. vloged it also
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d5A6ibSp6zo

no-judgement... tool

2008-04-13T13:25:00.003+01:00

No judgement ...in every breath of every moment... absolute...

is actualy, THE main tool, to remain "here", not allowing the mind to manifest.

To remain within and as the entirety of "you" -me here as all-, and to enable the being to not direct attention for what is percieved to be the beeingness of being here.

Once you define you here, acording to what you experience you -around you- you are giving up to the mind allowing "her" to manifest as searching for self, within fear of loss (= lose self).

so... it works by not allowing thoughts to take place in mind, those which, either remove your self expression as directing as rationality-of-the-mind , or either manifest feelings in you, that will restrict and constrict your movement, manifesting you as the mind and not as Self.

Self trust... not defines whatever happens and exists, being is not limited.
Self trus.. enables the most free expression of the being -as-life- within the limitation of the physical.

Mind ... searches for definition for everything... its a system... programed to do that, so that the entirety of the being is not realised, not aware, enslaved, puts limits in everything as definition, which add-up to the own limitations of the physical.

so.. as long as no judgement allowed, you express you as in oneness and equality, in the entirety of you-as-all, in existance.

Cat behaviour is assistance

2008-04-09T00:35:00.004+01:00

cat behaviour... affection... need of love... must SF .. yes it worked somehow... if i recall
she mirrors what my mind is trying to manifest when its time to wake up and i felt glued to the bed as needing to feel the body warmth of a girl, if the cat acts all needy then i must look into myself and see what am i feeling, that is the mind.

I still looking at my cat behaviour, to be aware of what she says to me... not only when getting up.

Animals seem to unconditionaly stand up in assiting humans...

but the nuances in their behaviour-changes are so slick... we tend to see it as them,
when really they are mirroring what is accepted and allowed by us humans.

example: i walk through the corridor... the cat in her crazyness puts herself in positions that
i am able to step over her...at risk of braking her a leg, or kicking her inadvertly and really hurt her body, in facing this i can see the reactions within me as feelings... the caring, worrying, the anger, the irritation, bulding up, the fear of her presence,. in jumping in front of what ever i want to do, she is putting her self in my way, wow this phrase is so revealing... she puts her self in my way, to make stop something...
clearly STOP the mind... thus... she sees much more clearly in life transcendence of oneness and equality, because not havving a mind blinding her expression and awareness, so she see´s what i accept and allow as my mind consciousness system to manifest as thoughts and feelings ... much better than i do.

So Matilde... (i would have called you Helena if you were not my mom and sister cat,... ahaha)
i direct my attention to you...to your presence. It prevents me to allow the mind of thougths to manifest, and i thank you for you support as a cat.
:P

Polarity frictions... hidden sub and unconsciousness

2008-04-05T23:06:00.003+01:00

So...

still a big issue... on work... the expression must be unconditional...

in relationships too... forgiveness all the time some thought or feeling strikes.
self in reactions to female body still, nothing must be seen as separation. And needs, and desires, in projected self in future, also those projections manifesting here as starting point, thus separation of self, in expectations, and formated social accepted needs and goals as enslavement and manifestation of the mind.

Not easy to describe what was accepted and allowed for, as i was explained, my body was showing me points of the subcounscious and uncounsciousness that still here with me, not allowing me to stand up in self honesty. In this dimentional help, was of great assistance. The mind is so limited in reading the body.

Self trust, as being here as the breath, is of great assistance to go through this fases, is the key to stand up, not allowing the mind to manifest.

Dreams

2008-04-05T22:54:00.002+01:00

Ok... letting be aware -as self- that dreams presently represent something that requires
one attention, as something in the beings world that must be directed.

Either the dreams are manifested by dimentions as dimentional help or mind as self standing up.

Either way the show to the being what self must direct in forgiveness and/or what must be self movement to suport self.

Each of the intervient separated manifestations, identified in the dream, is one point where the being as a oportunity to be self honest, standing up as stoping the mind of thoughts and feeling and emotions, and whatever might suport the being in self movement, and suport.

This is my awareness of what desteni exposed about dreams...
"heaven" changed, and dreams are not presently manifesting the mind as programing of the being into enslavement of self below layers of consciouness.

What is here... (?)

2008-04-04T23:56:00.006+01:00

So... forget minding what you must do... self!!!

The only way to be self honest... is not to forget what self-honesty is... in oneness and equality... lol

A way to deal with it ism to deal with whatever we must ...in the moment... and live moment after moment.

I come saying this... mostly for the strugle created by the compromises within work and schedules.

The procrastination --as mind act-- manifested extensively by design, that is what i accepted and allowed me to become -- but as presently it is in my control - as self control - and one must not be live as in past within the mind consciousness system as blamming what was lived and experienced when being birthed and rased as a mind consciousness system --" and what a mess!!!" those system are prone to, just look at drug addicts-- so... working my ass out, eliminating procrastination seems a break-through the mind barrier.

The directive principle to this situation... not broadening within i have here in my moments presently, is to go through work and standing up, but mainly do it from the starting point of expression, not regarding wonderings what might happen if i dont do it... as it will be fear of loss, as in fear of losing clients which is fear of losing self by not having money, and fear of not having love because of not having money...

so between doing the work as self expression... and looking closely in what i ever done clearly as self expression it ( looking at... from a self-honesty and oneness with-what-i-was-doing, perspective), there are some diferences, so for now will express with no thought, as much as possible, and see how goes self honesty within a required expression, but eventualy i will become what i see is my native self expression, as long as the starting points are equal and one, with the expression i did as a child when my mind system was not fully developed and infused.

Other points to look at will be how that expression suports this fucked up world we live in.
seems quite castrating point, and something that will supress expression, so in process, will
forgive as much i am able to pin point. But i am not willing to be limited to what my mind expressed as me in this world until now. That is not acceptable.

If i require support, i see dimentional help, and not yet being a portal, but there are other ways o comunicate interdimentionaly, where i can see me from dimentions, and direct me as what my mind might be manifesting... ultimately everyone will do this in self trust in the physical, for the physical is transcended when the mind is not present, and each one of us, as self has the hability to direct self as physical, manifested being.

Life directs
I am life.
I am one and equal with everything and everyone in existence.
I am not limited by the mind constructs.
I express.
I am the moment.
I am here.

A post about timeloops ... is next eventualy... as Self process takes place.
Timeloops wont be allowed.

Self movement as Self response

2008-03-22T21:45:00.008Z

Now... lately i “felt” like... i am needing dimentional suport way too much… you go (wtf?)

What´s up ... ??!!
Some drastic mediatic event about school teachers and students, recently exploded out in the media…

Went to see some videos about it in the internet, and became amazed by the obscenity of the comments people posted on the videos. Then I started replying to posted some comments… trying to bring some self-honesty awareness upon what people were showin that they were accepting and allowing by posting them. In the next day, I see that every post I posted, was deleted… lol

Wait a minute…now… that’s something wrong!!

Yes!!! but see the problem is not out there… in separation… out side of me… no way

It is here!! Be here… yes.. here. As me… as I am a part of the world we live “in society”.

Where I must look, to assist what I see out there, is actually right here within me… -as self- myself -as what I accept and allow – (and this is valid to any being)

“Any should try to mitigate the world shit…” wtf?? why?? World will face “the shit” as required, according to what was and is accepted an allowed... - no strings attached- -outside of self- to help sort things out, helping existence to become honest in oneness and equality

Life essence which is within and as everyone and everything… is self and will be manifesting in all forms in all places, in all situations, showing the points to be aware, those that must end, change or be created within what is espression on the physical world--- Earth -- somehow.

On forums….

I didn’t even know what I was doing in the forums… my attention was diverted to others feelings – like as if I must try to assist them, since some people seem very attached to mind… and I was not realizing that I have my own struggles within my process here as all to overcome.

So I must turn into my assistance, as the assistant of self instead of assisting others, first! Not doing that also removes some of their opportunity to birth themselves as life… in self trust… by a way of self-response-ability, not constantly recurring to assistance, waiting for other to sort this out… with no self-trust…

The breath application and some perceived dimensional help… ( this I state as self-trusting affirmation), help me to realize within me how life really expresses on the physical. Now… this is confirmed transcendence… also as… the mind wont be able to classify and specify -life-

So…. as soon I start to type this text… my cat starts playing… as I haven’t seen her doing for some days…

… but – it manifested .. no doubt about that. So she assists with her expression. We are both life.

Mind can explain this this!?!?!?

BTW … why must one human rely so much in dimentional beings… enslaving them in the process… as we can take responsibility for our self movement. I don’t want to condicionate the expression of individual beings as they forcing them to assist and support humans become self aware--- well this assumption is made on the basis that they could have others expression to express… but this is still mind systems point of view…

The self-honest perspective is:

self assists self … in self-movement and self-awareness

Summing up…

I am not responsible for others more then I am response-able for myself here

as them, as I am them and not just a part of them,

and then I move and direct myself in becoming life expression.

Hello Word as Self

2008-03-22T20:27:00.003Z

The criation of this blog, comes in the process, where i am able to give a contribution to change the World.

The most interesting part of this, is that; this change is made, by changing self, within what i accept and allow on our surrounding existence.

Because I AM the world, AS each ONE of YOU, i exist not only as a individual being, but also as truly integrated unified being that manifests "World" here on Earth.

I am one and equal to the world we live in, then; when I change myself, I change the world.

WORLD AND UNIVERSE IS EXISTENCE
SELF IS NOT LIMITED NOR DEFINED BY EXISTENCE.

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This process can be started by anyone: watching the Desteni Video Interviews and forum participation, at www.desteni.com.za