Word "Union"

The word "Union"

There is still a lot of strange shit connected to this word inside me.
A fear. Fear of being alone. More specifically the fear of "being left" alone, by being rejected by them. Fear of being Abandoned by others.
A shame - Society as God again - Validity
Shit traumas of bad experiences with other kids in high-school.

Then...
The "Love connection" - Desires/Frustrations to be in a/connected to all that i lived as relationships with woman's and the valorization of the experience of intimacy as unitedness/union. and The EGO drive as self feeding stimulation of being in a superior experience of intimacy as a picture perfect presentation to others. A Dream Experience.

This are all points of separation that influence my participation in this world.